dont have anything nice to say

so not gonna say anythin at all...
hehe
will write when the exams are done next wednesday.
bbye till then

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note... added on March 19, 2009... LOL... taking advice from a fictional cartoon rabbit... damn... now that's the height of pathetic.

Sigh!!!! Exam time… approaches…

In exactly 12 days to be precise.
Freaking out!
Also have this semester’s Final film due on Saturday… not really in the mood to write…
So. This can just count as a trivial little update. Will have a looong philosophical monologue as my next post to make up for it. :D hehe… just kidding of course… who would want to read that!?

Help! Help! I’m drowning! noooooooooooooooooo…

In slush no less. Yuck. I hate this weather. There is an unending, nasty drizzle, and the amazing ‘road’ outside our house has turned into one giant mud river. Squelch!!!

On another topic… let me apologise for the ‘dead blog’ impression that was going on for the last month or so. Been really, really busy. Exams are looming. In two weeks!!!!!!! Eeek… and we haven’t really finished our portions yet. Therefore LOTS of work. And that’s really understating things. (the drowning comment has duel meaning! Hehe)

Oh, I finally got my last semester results this week… sheesh, talk about disorganised! It’s almost the end of this semester, they lost our original results, so now they’ve given us some other grades???! My college is crap. I swear, they have no clue what they’re doing about 80% of the time. And I’m probably being kind with that estimate…

As you can tell… I am not in a very good mood. Although, there is one thing for us to be grateful for. The prof. we have right now (for Project Fiction, and Sound for Moving Image) is the only faculty we’ve had all sem. who knows ANYTHING! He’s a lot of fun. Class is interesting again :D yay!

We’ve been getting some pretty cool assignments to. Our final project for his class is to shoot a short film. And one of our options is making a Music Video! Which is obviously what I’ve decided to do… but that’s not for a little while yet. We have 3 other assignments to finish by this Monday. A complete pre-prod breakdown for any TV commercial of our choice, a Photomatic – which has to be an ad, and a 1min short film. Actually, I should be working on my 1min film script… will go do that in a bit. Luckily don’t have college till afternoon…. But it’s getting kinda late, so maybe I’ll stop this here and go finish my work. bbye

Bah humbug!

I’m really really bored! Holiday blues I guess… had a whole week off, and although it was really nice to be jobless (we didn’t even have a holiday assignment!) it still got pretty boring to not have anything to do… but only after a while :) the main problem is that hardly anyone else had such a long break… and it was raining a lot! So hardly went out… which means all I had to do was sit at home and read or watch tv… sigh… u see how that could get a little old after a while…

Anyway, it’s Saturday, which mean tomorrow is my last day off. And I guess I’m sort of looking forwards to going back to college… at least there’ll be people around then! But still, college does suck, so I’m pretty sure I’ll be wishing for holidays again in under a week! He he… I feel like the Rumtum Tugger…

This is a pretty pointless post… I’m not really in the mood to write, so I have no idea why I’m posting anything at all… but I figure that since I’m sort of letting this blog slide, I should just post whenever I get the chance. And being completely and totally jobless it makes sense to just write something out now… well, guess i'll stop this ramble now... go find something else to do... mayb sleep :)

meme... from Anjali

hehe... saw this on anjali's blog, looked like fun. weirdly enough, many are similair! also i'm bored and cant sleep... so here goes:

8 Fictional Characters You'd Love To Hang Out With:
1. Anne Shirley
2. Max (from Darkangel)
3. Willow
4. Nathan Scott (from One Tree Hill)
5. Lestat (although that would probably be really scary)
6. Death (the Pratchett version)
7. Nanny Ogg
8. Lara Croft

7 Celebrities You'd Invite To Dinner:
1. Joss Whedon
2. Terry Pratchett
3. Oprah Winfrey
4. James Herriet (as anjali said, post-humously… )
5. Bono
6. Alex Band
7. Gerald Durral (again post-humously. More’s the pity)

6 Things On Your Desk:
don’t have a desk… so the closest thing to that, my low cupboard …
1. a comb
2. a pen stand (with pens)
3. headphones
4. a calendar
5. my cell phone (but that’s only temporary)
6. my printer

5 Places You'd Like To Visit:
1. Australia/New Zealand
2. The Isle of Skye
3. the moon
4. ancient Mesopotamia
5. Paris

4 Things You Probably Don't Know About Me:
1. I used to talk to the wind
2. I make faces at myself in the mirror sometimes to cheer myself up
3. I once started crying coz a praying mantis landed on my bare knee (I HATE those things! They give my the creeps)
4. I have never slapped anyone.

3 Things You Wish You Had Right Now:
1. Thief (I love this game. And my comp is so game deprived at the moment)
2. chocolate
3. an ipod nano

2 Names You Wish Were Your Own:
none i can think of. I like my name just fine…

Day Of The Week You Love The Most:
Sunday. Coz that’s the only day I don’t have college.

titleless

There’s someone stomping around above my head. Which is creepy. Coz our upstairs neighbours moved out!
Dint have college today, and dint go yesterday, coz of the rain!!! But it dint rain today… so actually, that sentence should go more like this.
Yesterday I tried to go to college. And got soaked walking up the road. Despite the fact that I had an umbrella. Thank god for cell phones… um… or who ever invented them. Which makes me wonder… who did invent cell phones? Do u know? I certainly don’t.
Anyway. As I was saying… I got soaked. Called our teacher (who, incidentally, is less then a year older then me! – and personally, I don’t think she’s at all qualified. She didn’t know who Orson Welles was!!!! our college is crap.) and told her I couldn’t turn up… then… The rain got worse. Luckily I was home and dry before that happened… but the police commissioner declared the 26th and 27th holidays for all educational facilities, coz road conditions are so bad. What with the flooding and all… today was the 26th. And it dint rain all day! so I guess we’ll have college tmrw. Coz as I said, college is crap… y cant they listen to the police commissioner? He is an authority figure after all… and he must have some idea of what he’s doing. Wait. This is India! What am I saying?! Lol… Just kidding, I’m sure he’s an excellent man and dedicated to his job…
Oh… damn. The internet just cut out… good thing I’m writing this on word… but it does mean I wont be posting again. Oh well…
Diwali holidays start next week. We get 9 days off! :) cool isn’t it… I love living in a multi-religious culture…
So… other then that, life is boring. In fact, I was so bored yesterday, that I sat ad watched Tarzan. How sad is that? It is such a crappy cartoon… but I was all alone at home, and it was raining! So naturally, a slight feeling of depression settled over me. and the only thing that helps in such a situation, is watching a really pathetic movie or cooking. And since I didn’t feel like doing the later… I sat and watched TV. Which, I should mention, is pretty much what I did today. Being on holiday is only fun if there are other people on holiday with you. Actually, Lavi had a holiday both days too… but yesterday it was all rainy and there was a massive puddle in front of her house, as in calf deep wading type puddle… so she was stuck at her place and I was stuck at mine. But today we baked :) which was fun. Made up a whole new cake recipe. Came out really well actually… so had that with ice cream… still some left. And k just about got home. She’s eating dinner right now… but when she’s done we can eat more CAKE n ICE CREAM! Yay :D

On the subject of the rain… what is WITH that!? Why are we having torrential downpours in October… seriously. This just goes to show, all u morons who thought global warming wouldn’t effect the world in our life times and therefore continued to pollute the earth without a twinge from your consciences… really brilliant move guys. Thank you sooo much for helping to decimate our home and make it that much less habitable for all the life it supports.
I think u should all go find some corner to cry in. and when u come out… go help someone!!! There are plenty of natural disasters to choose from… and almost everywhere in the world too… tragedy at your backdoors people. U cant turn a blind eye anymore… this means you! Get it now? I really wonder…

lol...

i was going to post a fairly rant-y entry on the ‘boyfriend phenomenon’ which was basically a grouse about the peer pressure to be paired off… but then I decided it was a little to controversial and possibly too much like an actual diary entry to have in a public journal… so instead I shall make this token post :) but if any of u want to read the rant I saved it… could post it up here later… but for all I know, my viewpoint may have changed buy then… not drastically I’m sure, but maybe enough that I wont want to post it. Anyway… gtg. Was working when something set me off on the relationship soap box. He he…

oh... i set up another blog. mns "my space" silly thing... don’t know how i'm going to maintain two! not a big deal to try though... actually i should probably go and post in that one too... now, while the writing bug is biting... he he...

Also, one mo ting i forgot to mention. the nasty, 'poop incident'! I dint say anything about this did I? Well… anyway. The weirdest and grossest thing happened to me the other day… last week or so I think… so... we had ethnic day in college, and therefore i was wearing a sari. Which means no pockets! I had my phone in my hand.

Well, we get to college and park the car… and I tell this friend of mine to watch out as there’s some really icky dog doo on the ground near our doors… and I get out… at which point my phone in a dramatic bid for freedom took a heroic dive out of my hand, bounced once on the ground and landed… face first in the shit. Yes… eeeeeeeeeew!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was soo tempted to just leave it there. But it was new…

so instead, I picked it up, VERY carefully, using a plastic bag… and when I got home I washed it out with detol and other extra strong detergents… also wore gloves the whole time… which I later threw. Of course! Then I went and got it exchanged :)
lied to the salesman and said it hadn’t been working… so now I have a brand new Nokia 1600… which is an excellent phone. Very simple and basic, but it does everything I would want it to… still, I must say, of all my three phones, the first one, my plain old Nokia 3315, was the best. I miss it… wish it hadn’t conked out.

What to write?

This is officially a space killing ramble : ) u have been warned!
I’m in a good mood. Which is weird coz college really sucks, and that’s pretty much all I have time for recently. But tmrw’s a holiday! Yay! For dashera… it’s great to live in a multi-religious country. We get so many holidays! Lol… actually, having one day off isn’t really something to crow over. K and my mom have 5 whole days!!!! Lucky things… I wish I had that much free time too : ( But… not going to depress myself now… can wait till tmrw for that… he he : )
I may b a bit nuts… just an observation.
But then they do say that people who think they are crazy aren’t. and it’s the people who don’t even realise they’re acting cracked who turn out to b mad. But then how do they know that!? Maybe all the people who think they are crazy actually are, but being forewarned, have an easier time of hiding it from other people… doesn’t that make sense? Does to me… but then, maybe I’m nuts… : ) he he…
Okie… cant actually think of anything else to ramble about… not a very successful ramble is it… should be at least 12 paragraphs long to qualify! That’s what I think.
So
Lets make this twelve paras!
Lol
How am I doing?
Does this qualify as an erratic and strange ramble?
Damn…. This is still only 10…
Well… that leaves two to go. Lets make them count. Okie… what to talk about? Hmmm? Isn’t that how this started? Yep? Same old, same old… looks like I’m going in circles! Wooohooo… maybe I’ll get dizzy? Okie… more proof of the cracked thing… yes? Yes.
AT LAST! The end : ) heh heh… y exactly am I even doin this? Very good question… I could be sleeping. But NO! here I sit filling in a completely useless post… of no value or worth to anyone, including it’s author… which is a very sad case. All things considered. But then, it should be a little amusing to go back and read at some later date… primarily, that’s why I write in this thing. To amuse myself and others, with my silly trivial musings. He he… at least, it amuses me. not sure about all u other folks. Is this fun to read?
Well, whatever.
I think I’ll go to bed now… sleepy time : ) plan to cram in all the things I don’t usually get to do tmrw. Lol… probably wont b possible. So mayb I’ll keep some of them for diwali break. Which is a whole week! Yay! Bbye now.

Mass Media is a wonderful thing!

The strangest thing just happened. I’m listening to Virgin Radio, and on the news they said that there was an earthquake in Pakistan, India and Afghanistan. 7.3 on the Richter scale… and none of us at home even knew about it, coz we haven’t watched any news this morning yet… weird. Wonder why it’s not in the paper tho, probably happened after the presses had stopped rolling.

All female planet.

Has anyone seen that really creepy movie set in the future where there are no men? The whole planet is run by women, and babies are developed not born. But there’s no war or anything bad like that, coz women are just soo much smarter and less aggressive then men…
Well. Let me just say two words. What crap!
Okaaay… so maybe we aren’t as hopped up on aggression and territorial instincts as guys. And yeah, I’m pretty sure that a world run by women would be better then the one we have right now. Considering – lets face it, and not to be horrid and sexist or anything – men are just plain dumb half the time.
Women don’t have pissing contests. We definitely didn’t come up with the idea of trying to squeeze the other guys hand harder. Or road rage. And then there’s the fact that statistically, women usually account for only about 15% of all violent crime.

Still, better doesn’t mean perfect.
Women are dumb too. We get emotional, have cat fights, act bitchy, and nag! Not exactly conducive to absolute peace and harmony. What’s more, and all u guys don’t get swelled heads over this – but giving credit where credit is due, without guys, life would be just plain boring! Men are a constant source of entertainment.
On a grand scale; they came up with football! And basketball, rugby, American football, hocky, extreme sports, action movies… the list is ENDLESS! No women is nuts enough to have thought this stuff up. Although, once they were invented many are more then happy to play.
But, lets be absolutely frank. One of the ONLY reasons any of us is willing to watch, is if there’s some pulchritude involved. No way would I watch a complete rugby game if the guys weren’t so hot.
Which is just plain weird now that I think about it. Why do women find it interesting to see guys compete? So maybe these games are relatively more sophisticated ways of doing that then actually dukeing it out… but that’s all they really are! It’s all about who’s top dog. And we LOVE it!

I guess it all comes down to instincts. Men like to fight. And women like guys to prove they’re the toughest. But it’s a lot more complicated these days then it was for the average cave man.
Most of us hate it when guys do that obvious, male posturing thing. U know what I’m talking about…
Where they eye each other up, and try to make them selves look stronger, bigger, tougher. There voices get all deep. And they shake hands in that macho idiot manner, one pump, up and down, squeezing just as hard as they can... slaves to testosterone.
And it really ticks me off when guys do that stupid possession act they all seem to learn at birth. This women is mine! I Tarzan!! Me big ape!!!!
But I’d probably be just as ticked if he didn’t do anything at all! If I’m with a guy, even if he’s just a friend, I want to know I can depend on him to take care of me. Which doesn’t mean I actually want him to take care of me... but if I should need taking care of, he has to be capable of it.

Being able to handle yourself in a fight is important, but being able to avoid the fight entirely is a much more valuable ability. Making sure other guys realise she’s taken while still letting her know u respect her independence is a fine line to walk… guys don’t have an easy time of it. And yet they constantly try. It’s amusing.
we need guys around. they add balance and provide distractions. it would be impossible to have female friends if u didn't also have male ones. who would u turn to when u actually want a solution to a problem and not just sympathy? and guys make much better shoulders to cry on... women get tired of other women after a while...

There’s no doubt about it... A world with no guys may not be as violent, but it sure wouldn’t be much fun either.

Posting by popular demand

He he… say that 20 times fast… :)
I just did the most random thing… accidentally clicked ‘next blog’ and reached some guys journal. Written really well. Couldn’t help reading it!!! Anyway. My weirdness aside… actually, what else do I have to write about But that!? He he…
Ok
So. Not been well. Flu. No biggie. Got to skip college. Which wasn’t really that great a feat since we only had to go in a few hours on some days to show our faces. So basically got sleep and rested up. Which was great :D
There was an auto strike on today. And apparently some ppl were burning tyres and stuff… left unions on strike or something. So anyway, no one went to work, from home I mean. Not NO one at all! Whatever… bit sleepy. Late and I didn’t get that much nap time today…
Thinking of going to college tmrw. Not that I feel like it. But I’m not really sick anymore… but I have to go in on saterday. Ethnic day *barf* why do they have those? Have to dress up in a sari and everything… not my idea of fun.
Actually I don’t really mind wearing a sari that much… it’s ok. U get used to it. And it isn’t uncomfortable per se, just feels a bit awkward. Mainly it’s the getting dressed which is a pain. Hate that. And ironing the cholli and petticoat. That’s BAD. The one good thing is that I have my own sari’s… and therefore chollies and petticoats that actually fit. Major improvement to wearing something that doesn’t. but still, have to go sort out which one. Silk or cotton? What colour? What style? Bha! Rather just wear jeans and a t shirt… he he
Oh well… have to, so better sit tmrw and sort it all out.
At least I don’t have the problems of some of my friends! One of them has to go get her belly button ring removed coz her mom doesn’t know about it, and would FREEK OUT! He he… that’s why u should learn how to tie your own sari… not that I have anything to hide. Pity… :)

ahhh... time

he he... finally, time to post. but i'm going to keep this short coz it's 5:00a.m. and i want to go take a short nap before college. things are crazy.... the Delhi media H.O.D was here this week, her name is sangitika... anyway, she came in to sort things out. and although i'm not too sure how good a job she did, things are more settled then they were before she showed. At least we have a time table now, and are going to be starting our course work. actually we've already started, just haven't done as much of it as we should've. only started the documentary section. anyway, we're going to shoot our films and then we'll be done with that. so by oct we'll be on our way. i'm happy coz it means we'll be done by the 2nd week of December, exams and all... yay! means a huge break.
okie... should go now, give my self and the comp a break. feeling a bit hyper actually. probably due to the coffee buzzing about in my system... and the lack of sleep too. although i did get 7 hours last night! and a short 2 hr nap this afternoon :) which was pure decadence and laziness on my part... he he.
okie doke, that's all folks...
oh, and NOBODY comment on any spelling errors here... there will be sever consequences... i am in no condition to do anything about my spelling or even care. so shush. ur trivial opinions are not required. lol :)
bbye... feel free to comment if it's positive. otherwise u will have to 'give me a moment to suppress my deep hatred' he he he... bet only k knows where that's from. and now i'm just wasting time and procrastinating... which is just plain silly since the only thing i have to do now is curl up in bed! so... so long people. for the very last time tonight... erm... this morning, i mean.

The general suckyness of all things even remotely similar to life

The title should give u a clue of my current mood. Feel free to skim or just skip the following. Not like the post will be worth reading anyway…


I hate college. I want to quit. We’re doin useless boring stuff that doesn’t seem to be in the least bit connected to our syllabus. And it’s time consuming and bleh.
I just know we’re going to suffer when exam time comes around. We usually have a hard time completing our portions when we have the whole four months to do it in. and we’ve already wasted over a month. I’m sick of my classmates. I’m especially sick of parvathi. And I dislike the faculty. He doesn’t know squat. What’s worse, he cant make up his mind. I HATE HIM!!! he keeps giving us these daft, and pointless assignments and he’s NEVER clear about what exactly he wants from us. AURGH!!!
And my teeth hurt.
Why do we need wisdom teeth. My head is aching, and so is my jaw. And neck. I’m tired. But it hurts. So I cant sleep. Also I have one more damn assignment to do.
Two actually. A stupid script thing, and a slide show. The pictures I will have to take tmrw… but I don’t really even have a story idea yet. I miss having sane faculty to take problems too. Is the world conspiring against me? I’m beginning to feel like I have cause to be paranoid.

Misery does not need company, but everyone else I know seems to be having as sucky a time right now. Poor us…

everything is wonderful now

He he... love this song.

I just made a new play list of all the songs that make me feel happy. Quite a long list actually. Isn't it strange how each of us associate specific songs with certain emotions or feelings? Sometimes they can even bring up memories long buried.

Actually that's not really all that weird. After all the same thing happens with smells! For example the smell of freshly baked, or baking bread will always remind me of the school kitchen, and the cosy feeling it had. So, no wonder sounds have as powerful an effect.

What really stumps me though, is the fact that it doesn't always make sense, what I mean is, the song could be about something else entirely, but we remember it in a certain way and that's what we react to. Maybe it the circumstances of when we first heard the song, or whatever. But the emotions created at that time stick, and that's how we will always react to that song. Unless of course, one day you hear the song at the same time as something even more powerful then the first memory is going on. Then maybe the feeling for that song, and the memories it elicits, changes.

Not at all sure I’m putting this across clearly. So lets see if I can come up with an example... ok, the other day I was watching 'Rock Star INXS' and one the contestants sang this Bonnie Raitt song, ‘I Can’t Make You Love Me’. anyway, I don’t even remember ever having heard this song before. But I really liked it, and I had this really clear memory of a room, and this lovely safe feeling.

No clue how it popped up. And I had absolutely no recollection of where that room was! So later, I was listening to the song on the comp and my sis walks in and I told her about the memory that came with it. She started laughing and told me I was remembering the living room of some friends of my parents. Apparently we used to go there for parties when we were tiny, and they usually played this song. I must have been about four…

I don’t even remember those people anymore. But that song produced such a strong image that I could describe that room a good 17 years later. Weird huh? And then there are songs like Eric Clapton’s ‘Wonderful tonight’, I don’t think there will ever be a time when I listen to this song and don’t think about my parents dancing.
But that's what songs are about, they're ment to make u feel.

sob!!!

don't feel like working and i have a HUGE assignment due tmrw. what's worse, we were only given it yesterday. and i didn't have a chance till now to sit down to it... but now i'm tired and would rather just go take a nice hot bath and then go to bed. life sucks.
he he
feeling better now.
but still dont feel like working...
it's going to take positively HOURS! and i spent the whole morning wandering around in the hot sun taking pictures for another assignment.
have a headache too. *pout* i need a hug. but all of my family have gone to sleep already!!! and hardly anyone is on line... so i can't even chat my self out of the blues. sigh....
now i'm depressed again. i think i may be coming down with something. only explanation for the way i'm feeling. which is, basically, wretched!
mayb a bath would make me feel better. relaxing... yeah. i think i'll go do that.

what else?

sorry, that deserved a post all on it's own.
and
HI D!!!!!! dint forget u!!! just dint know u were reading this. seemed a lil silly to thank someone when they aren't even going to know. :D so let me rectify that error now. thank u!!!!! :)
when did u get a blog?
Ok. Now for the reason of this post. These stupid rules that are restricting (and murdering)the BLR party scene are really getting bugging! nothing open after 11:30 and now no dancing!!! what is wrong with dancing!
idiot government. idiot cops.
sigh... gtg got a film script to write. if i can just get started... sigh. again. :)gnite

french rap

hee hee hee :)

Does anyone have a nice time in school?

Well, actually that’s not quite the right question… but I’m not sure what IS! I’m reading through my trip log from this school trek we took to Kugti pass – had this seriously bright (*eye roll*) idea of typing it out so that I have a permanent account of it, and it’s really, really depressing!!!!
This was in 2001, and I had completely forgotten what an insecure and thin-skinned individual I used to be. Hee hee hee… or maybe I’d just forgotten exactly how horrible a time I had in school. Kids are really mean! In fact, I think people are just plain mean.
And I would like to take a moment here to say thank you R and A for being there :) You guys are two of the main reasons why my last years in school were not absolutely horrible. Seriously! But of course, one of the major reasons is that a whole bunch of the really nasty ones passed out of college (and then, from all accounts, attempted to find, and use, every means possible to ‘pass out’ for real! He he he… sorry. Obvious. But I really had to say that. Revenge you know…)
But truly, this account is quite horrible. I would feel really bad if I watched a movie and saw the protagonist getting half the nasty treatment I faced. But looks like I turned out fine :D I hope… In fact, I have this theory that kids who have the worst time in school – on an average, do much better later in life.
Being picked on constantly does one of two things, either u turn out a real wimp ( which seems to be rare, it’s usually the ‘populars’ who are the weakest personalities) or you pick up the whole ‘I’ll show them!” syndrome. I definitely find that the majority of really successful and hard working kids I know, had an awful time in school.
[hmmm... okie, that post was actually written about two nights ago. dint have any net. stupid cable company... gtg now.]

Weird friends

Maybe that’s a little inaccurate… acquaintances then.
I have weird acquaintances! He he… not that that sentence sounds exactly normal!

Anyway.

This last week has been fairly strange. First, college has started. But not really. We have no faculty, or course work … or ANYTHING! So basically,
we were told that we might as well only start coming from the 29th. Which is when the new kiddies start.

Other then that. These guys from Mtv showed up at college the other day. They have this youth programme where they have a topic and kids from specific colleges in Blr, Bbay and Delhi discuss it. Supposed to be giving us a ‘voice’, but since they discuss totally bogus stuff, and don’t actually do anything… I think it’s a BIG waste of time! But one of my daft friends put my name on the list and I got short listed. Augh.
So now I have to go. The shoot is on the 24th, and they’ll air it 2 weeks later. Guess it may be interesting from a purely technical standpoint. One can hope… :)

On a more interesting front! I took my first piano class this week!! :D the kid, Shyna, is the cutest little thing. Only four… but she wants to learn. Which is good. I think it’ll be fun to teach her! I need to go and get some stick on stars and things. At her age I’m really going to have to work to keep her interested. Good fun :)
Half an hour on Thursdays… something to look forwards too. And the cash will be a bonus! He he he… plan to teach about four kids, already have them, but need to confirm timings and things. Don’t want more, doubt I could handle it… won’t have the time. Once college actually starts that is…

Okie… gtg to bed now. Feeling pretty exhausted. Not too well mainly. Hate this weather. Changes too often. Makes everyone ill… also I have to be in college tomorrow because the producer for that show from Mtv is probably coming to give us a briefing. Sigh… maybe if I just bunk out they wont expect me to show on the day of the shoot and so I wont have to… but I’m too much of a good girl for that. Damn it! He he… but seriously, no way would I bunk out now that I’m on that list… just not ethical. Create problems for them too… and what if I want to get a job at Mtv at some point? Not that that’s likely… but still. No sense burning bridges. Right? Right.

home again, home again

Got home Monday… which was two days ago now. Still feel weird. There’s the usual weirdness of settling back into routine, but there’s an extra weirdness coz I have nothing to do. Which is making me very bored! Seriously… I’ve gotten so used to being almost constantly busy. Or at least constantly having company… and if there wasn’t someone around I watched TV or some such.
But here. I don’t have a schedule yet! That’s what’s bugging me. I don’t know exactly what I should be doing at all times. And so the free time is getting to me… this actually usually happens when u have an extended holiday. But that’s the thing! I’ve only had a couple of days off and I’m already bored.
So I guess tomorrow I shall settle down and figure out how to spend my time for the next two weeks… till college opens.
I’m dreading the college thing a little. I think our timings are going to be seriously messed up! At least, our first day seems pretty weird. College at 11. who has college at 11!? Even on the first day! It’s just too weird. If that’s actually our timing, that means college will end at 5! Crazy rush hour traffic every day! Not a happy thought. I hope this isn’t the case… but I’m not holding my breath.
There’s also the little matter of having no faculty. I wonder if they’ve found someone yet. They better have. That damn BS (our new princi… his name is Brahm Sharma. The abbreviation is my mom’s idea… he he) isn’t screwing up my last year!
Okie…. On the happier side. Job went pretty well. I think Vijay uncle was quite happy with the way things turned out. Which is good. I was a little worried (as u all know) but I made a tiny little film. And they are planning to use it. So I got paid! Yay!!! Only 3500. but that’s not too bad for a months work. And as only an intern!!!! We’re meant to be free labour after all… anyway. I’m definitely not complaining. :D
Oh… that reminds me! I’m supposed to be putting the Sri Lanka pics up here right? Hmmm… guess I’ll have to get Apsi to mail them to me. Only have hard copies.
Also, apparently my class co-ordinator has got a couple of job offers for me! :D stuff I can do while still in college. All animation stuff!!! Yippee! And I’m also probably going to be taking piano classes for a few kids. All small babies… so I really hope I don’t completely suck at it. Which is likely… haven’t really played the piano in over a year! So bad of me… anyway. As my mom pointed out. This will be a good way to get a little cash on the side while keeping in touch with the piano myself. And considering the usual fee is 500 bucks a month for an hour a week… it seems like a pretty good idea to me. have to get back in practice first though… also I really have to see how college goes. If my timing are too weird it may not be possible. Which I have already told the people who have asked. Which is only two kids so far… not too much of a problem I should think…
Lets see… he he… sounds like these next few weeks are actually going to be quite hectic and fun! I love being busy… but only if I also get the required amount of free time and sleep of course :)
Speeking of sleep… I should probably go to bed now. So gnite!!!

I've used my talents as I could, I've done some bad, I've done some good

last day of work...
going to go check on my film now. happy with it I hope :)
parents and sibling will arrive tmrw morning. some godforsaken hour, like 6, I am sure... I am not going to the station to pick them up! been getting waaaay to little sleep recently. hooray for holidays tho :) going to get at least a week off b4 college starts. now I had better get back to work. to sleepy to write interesting dialogues anyway.
yawn.....

more blasts in london

what is wrong with ppl? i don't know.
watched a really good movie yesterday. City of God. brazillian film. won an Oscar... fantastic. a must see according to me... based on a true story about how a boy from the City of God (near Rio) becomes a photographer. it looks at the mob mentality, and why people join gangs. very, very fasinating.
one of the guys at work has all these awsome movies and he's lent me a couple to watch. halfway through this hilarious movie called Warning: Parental Advisory. True story about how Frank Zappa, John Denver and Dee Snider (from Twisted Sister's) defended Rock from censorship, in 1986. brilliantly funny so far.
think I'll go to bed. tis late. and work tmrw. and day after... sigh. busy weekend ahead.
gnite

Got Deadline! Got Work!

so what am i doing writing in here? well... actually I'm waiting for one of my co-workers to arrive so i can get them to do some design type stuff for me and i can actually start my work. hope they get here soon....
my deadline is actually the 1st which should be easily manageable, but i want to be done on the 28th! which I'm not too sure of coz that's only a lil over a week from now. wouldn't be a prob except for the fact that i cant do the shooting and editing on my own and everyone is busy. so i will have to chase after ppl to get my work done. it's not like i don't know how to do it!! so y cant i? :( oh well... have to follow rules. sigh...
the reason i want to finish my project by the 28th? well.... the parents and K are coming down for the weekend! :) yay! good fun. and i think i will go back home with them on sunday when they leave. because that way i will not need to take that wretched train ride alone again... which was not something i was looking forwards to at all!
i hate traveling by train alone... it's so boring and uncomfortable! u keep wondering if all ur stuff will get stolen while ur in the loo, and other nasty stuff like that. and night trains are way worse. but mayb now i wont have to face that again :) a very good thought.
ok... altho Param, the guy I'm waiting for, isn't here yet, i guess i should go see what work i can do without the design stuff... no time to phaff around!

at work and still bored

he he he... anyways. just realized that i actually haven't mentioned anything about hyd at all! i still haven't been out all that often... but i HAVE gone to a few places. work mainly, of course... including Saturdays. but i did do the salsa course, which was held at this pub called 10 Downing Street - or 10D :) it's one of the more 'hep' places here. they don't have any discs here. just pubs with DJs, that ppl go to party at. this one is very crowded on Saturdays and Fridays... which are the two days that I've been there.
the first time it was the whole family. the adults were already there... and after we (dee, apsi and their two cousins) had finished dinner at the club, we joined them. it was quite a lot of fun. the next day apsi and i went with some friends of hers... the majority of which are a lot younger then me. i felt like a Grandma!!! but it was all good fun in the end... especially since none of them seem to have a very good capacity for alcohol and got very giggly and cute very fast. I was completely sober and had ample opportunity to be entertained by their antics.
we went for the salsa class with two of apsi friends. the guy who i was partnering is this eighteen year old kid. he's one of the ones who totally cannot hold their alcohol! he actually got quite buzzed on one mug of beer! it was really, really funny... especially since he looks about 14 and got completely fixated on the fact that i was wearing pinstripes. heh heh heh... poor kid. was quite embarrassed the next day and asked apsi to clarify that he was not desperate or trying to hit on me... tsk tsk.
on the whole it's been quite a lot of fun... but i am, none the less, looking forwards to getting back home to my own room and my own dog. :) i should probably explain that.... well they have two dogs. a really sweet lab and a Doberman! eek!!! the dobe is unpredictable... so we are keeping it as far away from me as possible. this means that if he is loose i have to be upstairs with the stairs blocked... and i cant go down to get a snack or anything... unless i get him locked out or into aunty and uncles room first.
this is quite a pain. he looks quite sweet, but i dont even want to risk trying to get to be friends with him coz he has bitten quite a few ppl! which is scary.... i miss petting the dog. :( cant pet slash (the dobe) coz he would probably take my arm off.... and cant pet scrappy (the big, cuddly, sweet, fat lab) becoz slash would get jealous and tear him to pieces. really! if he gets into a mood - hyper or grumpy, he attacks scrappy. nasty creature....
okie... i think i should go into the editing studio now... actually do some work instead of just sitting here.... heh heh heh he he he
bbye

I'm Soooo tired!

just posting to keep the fans happy! :) he he he
actually that is partially true. I'm pretty tired. it's late. the net is down at work AGAIN! so I can only squeeze in net time after Apsi and Dee are done with the comp. which is usually a lil late. actually it isnt all that late by my standards... but today was a lil tiring. missed work yesterday. injured my back in a fall and it was really killing me. but went in today. despite the pain. and had to work... so exhausting. then had last day of salsa class. Salsa! good fun! exercise if u do it for two hours like we have been... was a three day crash course. having a salsa party tomorrow night at 10D - I think i mentioned this place before... anyway. it's all good fun. something that i recommend everybody try. it is soo easy! ok. think I'll go to bed now. fill ya'll in when i next get the chance. gnite

sorry, sorry, sorry!!!

not that i think that all that many ppl are reading this! after all only ra commented on the fact that i haven't written in a while...
sigh! i am SOOO unloved!!! ha ha ha ha... sorry. again. as u may b able to tell I'm in a slightly hyper mood, so this is probably going to b a fairly weird entry.
so! the reason why it's been so long... well first there were EXAMS!!!! the dreaded disease none of us are able to evade till we leave school and college behind... and once those were done i had just a weekend to pack for hyd and sri lanka! whee!!! sri lanka was AWESOME fun. altho i must admit we didn't really see all that much of it. first we were staying at this really cool resort - called EDEN, that was by the beach. i ate SO much sea food!! other then that the food was normal 5 star fare... i guess it's pretty much the same everywhere! the only real diff was how cheap it all was! basically those two days consisted of swimming (in the pool, the sea was too rough! but the pool was really lovely!), eating (i must have gained a few kilos, but I've really been to nervous to check - heh heh, kidding. but I do feel like i may have gotten fatter... hmmm... not good), and lounging around. we also consumed a vast quantity of alcohol... well, not me personally, but as a group... mainly it was beer though... so none of us got smashed at any point ( a lil happy and tipsy yes - but not piss drunk. ever. which was a good thing. i have never been really, really smashed and do not choose to reach that point at any time - why would anyone voluntarily drink themselves into a stupor? or to the point that they feel even mildly sick? i just dont get it... in my opinion u have the most fun when u are aware enough to find all the other drunk ppl around u much more funny then they really are, but still not high enough to be one of the ppl who's doing the funny things - that they will no doubt feel embarrassed about the next day)
In Colombo we stayed at the Colombo Plaza, another five star joint. heh heh heh... That sounded like some thing dick tracy or one of those other old time private eyes would say... i think we spent most our day shopping here... not that the stuff u could get at any of the places we went to was all that radically different then anything u can get at home... but still... actually the duty free was the most fun to shop at. :) we also visited this club who's name i can no longer remember... they were playing fairly old music there... not retro, just old. as in the stuff that they were playing at spinn last year... or sometimes even longer ago then that. the weird thing is that they thought that stuff was fairly new!
i think one of the coolest things about sri lanka though is the cars!! they are awesome! since they dont have their own car manufacturers all their cars are imported!! i saw soo many BMWs and Mercs and even a few Jags! nissans and toyotas for them are as common as Marutis for us! it was a total trip... the weird thing is that there is hardly any two wheeler traffic... also there is absolutely no public transport! govt run i mean... it's all private! which means that the auto (or putput) fares have to b agreed upon before u get in one... otherwise, since there aren't any meters, u'll get fleeced. for sure.
apparently though... the racing scene there is pretty cool... they have dirt bikes not super bikes, but the cars are awesome... we didn't get to see one, which kinda bummed me and apsi out a lil, but there's always a next time i guess...
i really want to go back there one day... i have to see more of the place then we did! i don't feel like i got any idea of what the place or the ppl are really like. just an overall impression of the fancy stuff... not my idea of how to take a place in. but definitely a good holiday! :) relaxation wise especially. it was soo much fun. but I really wished my family had been able to come. there were these awesome looking lichties that they served every morning at the breakfast buffet. and altho i cant stand litchies i kept thinking how much K would've loved them!
one of the highlights of the trip was on the way back. we - each of us kids, got to sit in the cockpit of the plane for a while! we had to go in individually, and it was storming! it's possibly the coolest experience i have ever had! when i went in u could see the lightening forking across the windshield (is that even what it's called on a plane? i dont know) the whole experience was mind blowing. *happy sigh*
I'm definitely going to post some of the pics we took here... altho there really aren't that many. and of course we didn't get any from the cockpit... so, if ur interested, come check it out later. probably I'll put it as a separate link though... and not for a while coz i want to show them to my family while I'm there. and I'm pretty sure that if i stick 'em up here K will not be able to resist peeking *mock frown for sibling* :) heh heh...
hmmm... i think that covers the Sri Lanka topic... now i gotta talk about Hyderabad! actually i dont have that much to say. haven't been here that long. less then a week! and so far the only places I've been are home (I'm staying with Apsi and her family), work, and the club. and that last one for a tiny amount of time... just to pick up dinner on my first night here (before we left for sri lanka). will give u guys an update when i know more.
work is ok. so far I've got to do some work on Maya (yay!!!!! :D cool isn't it!) and a lil editing, which was obviously not that cool, since all editing is about the same, and i have never found it particularly interesting... i also did a lil work on Photoshop, cleaning up an image so we could use it as our texture for the Maya thing we're working on... and some copy correcting. but that was only coz i was bored and didn't have anything else to do, and it needed to be done. the net connection in office has been down since I got here. only started working this afternoon. and that is why I have not written till now. never have the time at home and of course I couldn't in Sri Lanka. I'm waiting around for Apsi to get here so that we can go to the club for dinner. feeling pretty starved actually. haven't had anything to eat since lunch!! poor lil constantly hungry me!
guess I'll stop now. coz altho apsi hasn't gotten here yet I've pretty much run out of stuff to say! :) he he he... bbye

just a short entry

i just googled boredom... he he... u get the funniest things!
off to bed now. last exam tmrw.
so sleepy! despite having had a nice long nap this afternoon. still have all my packin and stuff to do!
viraj is comin to blr tmrw. guess this weekend is going to be really busy.
oh well... once these exams are done it's all good.
gnite

exam fever... :(

sigh.
monday did not go well. it was the first paper. Media Project and Editing. 3hrs. Not enough time... altho i did manage to finish, which is more then i managed last sem. I HATE EXAMS! i NEVER do well... there have of course been exceptions. but that is pretty much the rule. i just don't write fast enough. and i forget words and all that shit. the editing part wasn't too bad... but the media project thing! damn, it almost makes me swear! in fact i did. firstly we had absolutely NO idea what we were supposed to study! it had no focus! they could ask us a question about any tiny trivial detail that we have learnt in the last two years! and they did. i don't know wtf i wrote. probably some absolute crap. It was SO not fun. when i got my first look at that paper i nearly had a coronary... heheh... ok, that is definitely a slight exaggeration. but i did think WHAT in HELL! some of those questions were sooo bizarre! oh well. that's done.
but i do not imagine that tmrws paper is going to be any picnic either. in fact i pretty much expect it to be WORSE! :( i am not a happy camper...
tmrws paper in on CLW (that's Camera and Lighting Workshop) and Film Studies. both are horrid. not as subjects.... where they are actually really cool and fun to study. but that’s the practical side. for our exam we have to study reams and reams of info! it's so daft! why put two subjects that involve soo much work in the same paper!? and then they expect us to be able to answer it in that measly 3 hours! trying to write that fast always makes my hand cramp. I'm going to b in major pain by the end of it all...
I'm looking over my film noir notes now. and that's more then 30 pgs and there's no assurance that we'll even get questions about that topic. what's more, that still leaves all the other waves, noirs and genres that i haven't covered in great detail. and u know, we don't even do this stuff in class. we just sort of do an informal discussion after watching a whole bunch of films... i did ok last year on our film studies section. but our last year proff for the subject (who corrected the exam - which is how it works) thought i was good already. he liked me. he knew that i worked hard. I'm not saying that he was partial or anything - coz obviously he wasn't. i did only get an M... but anyway. this years proff? yeah, he HATES me!! seriously. he is not a nice guy... he actually wrote this:

Remarks on Class Participation:
You don't allow for dialogue when interacting. Far too opinionated, and this gets in the way of you listening, and prevents you from being insightful, and more open to ideas. You are prejudiced to the point of being obnoxious.

seriously. that is WORD for WORD what he wrote. and on my ASSIGNMENT! how unprofessional is that!? and when he was called on it - by our class teacher, he justified his behaviour by claiming he was doing me a favour. and that no other teacher in any college would have accepted my behaviour.
let me just say, i have NEVER, not once in all my years of education ( and I'm 21 now and started school at the age of 4!) had this sort of a problem with any of my teachers! in fact they usually really like me! I've even been accused of being a teachers pet!!!! ok, i know I'm arrogant and definitely i have very strong opinions which I am, possibly, a lil too over willing to share... but please! his comment was still just a lil strong. difinitely hurt my feelings at the time...
want to know what i think brought it on tho? well... i didn't agree with him that sitting and watching movies all day, every single day, was the purest form of life. seriously. he thinks that.
We were having a discussion, in class, about a documentary film we had just seen (that followed the life of this bunch of extreme film buffs - who actually do spend there whole lives watching movies) i just said that if u don't experience life except through another person's perception of it - which is basically what all cinema is - then u aren't really living. we were having a discussion for gods sake!!!! but he wouldn't even listen to my reasoning... he just got all mad, and shouted me down like a 3 year old... that's when i found out his opinion... it's not like i was trying to be tactless and offend him! i never even knew his whole 'purest from of life' thing at the time...
sigh.
and now this dumb bastard has my grades in his hand.... not a happy thought. in fact, it's the main source of my worry.
the lighting and camera thing is worrying bcoz there is sooo much to cover. and again, there is no way to know what to focus on. so we just sort of have to study as much as we can. and hope that what gets into our heads will actually get asked in the paper. but at least no real faculty worries here. the proff who's going to correct this is a decent guy. knows his stuff... so fudging is going to be impossible... heh heh. oh well. we can only hope.
think i'm done. all talked out. so time to get back to the grindstone.
bbye... and good luck to me!

lesse...

it's been quite a few days and i think I'll fill in two posts today. one normal update... and the second one coz i got to talk out my nervousness b4 i put a hoodo on my exam tmrw.
so, on the normal front:
exams started on monday, second one tmrw... last one on friday. did i say this b4? well, only 3, so that's not too bad... but i really dont feel even half way prepared!!! okie. more on that in the other post.. which, come to think of it, is going to get read first! since it's getting posted later and all.. oh well... he he - sorry you weren't warned.
anyway. leaving for hyderabad on tuesday. that's the 28. :D at 5 in the evening... taking a night train. so reach there at 6 the next morning. i hate taking night trains alone :( oh well...
so, reach hyderabad on the 29th... as i said... and going from there to COLOMBO!! he he he... cool right. for a holiday b4 i start my internship. going with the people I'm stayin with in hyd - very close family friends (obviously) and also my boss - Vijay Uncle's family... it's all good! just cant wait till these exams are over! only gives me three days proper to sort out all the packing and to clean my room b4 i leave and all that stuff... but i really don't think that should b an issue. packing NEVER takes me that long... and i actually quite like to clean my room (yeah, yeah, that's a bit weird - but i have never understood how people can live in a big mess! or mayb it's just boarding school training)... altho that would mean that everyone who goes to boarding school would come out being a bit AR about having a clean room... so tell me guys, r u clean freaks :D heh heh heh... i don't think so....
okay... that about cover all i have to say... been studyin. it has not been fun. i now have to get back to it. after a rant out all the stuff that I'm scared about... heh heh... not really a joking matter really. oh well... sigh. I'm gone
bbye

Cant concentrate!

Actually, I hardly went back to my work at all…
There’s this whole bunch of songs running round and round my head… and I guess I’ve just had it up to here *holds hand over head* with trying to study…
My newest favourite song is ‘You’re Beautiful’ by James Blunt. Brilliant song. This guy is pretty cool actually… I also have 3 Doors Down’s ‘Here Without You’ and ‘Breathe’ by Erasure coming in to relieve the monotony one in a while. Although since it’s been these same 3 songs for the last 12 hours or so, it’s not THAT much of a relief.
But the worst song to have stuck in you’re head in my opinion is the new BEP track ‘Don’t Phunk With My Heart’ it’s REALLY annoying! My mom thinks it sounds like a Hindi film song… and I must admit that I agree. It does seem to be influenced by the afore mentioned genre. But it was lodged so firmly in my cranium a while ago that I finally broke down and downloaded it today. So now I can at least listen to it and get it out of my head whenever I want… always a good thing.
through extencive researsh I’ve found that the best method to get a song out of you’re head is to listen to it… preferably in such a way that it gets stuck in someone else's (heh heh). Really! This works! I have NEVER had the same song stuck in my head that K has (well nearly never). And invariably if I listen to it or sing it enough it gets stuck in hers… and then ‘snap’ it’s out of my head!!! Of course this usually results in her being pretty mad at me… heheheh… but that’s ok. Bcoz she does the same thing to me just as often…
DAMN! I just smacked a mosquito 3 times ( yes thrice!) and the bloody thing (no pun intended – I do NOT joke about mosquitoes!) didn’t die! Instead it flew of… snickering loudly to itself no doubt… I hate those nasty blood sucking hell spawned creatures! Did u know that they can survive almost anywhere?! Even extremes in temperature don’t really bother them…except of course that temperature effect there breeding habitat. They cant survive if there isn’t any stagnant water. So if it’s too hot – all water evaporates before they can breed, or too cold – all water freezes over before they can complete their breeding cycle… then no mosquitoes…
the thing is… I don’t even see what possible useful function they have! Why do mosquitoes exist? They’re just awful lil things that fly around spreading diseases and irritating all other living creatures… it would be no loss if they all suddenly vanished.
Ooh… on a totally different topic. Star World has started showing Buffy re-runs!! Yay! : ) everyday at 5. it’s already up to season two… such fun!! But I think season 3 will start while I’m in Hyderabad. Which wont be good, coz that’s the season I missed most of and I wont be able to watch while I’m there… sigh.
Well I guess I could always borrow the DVDs from A… but the bad thing about that is that there wont be anything to stop me from watching the whole season at one shot! Seriously. I’m capable of doing that… heheh… madness.
Ok. It is now 5. and I think I should get of the comp. Mayb go lie down for a while… not sleep, coz I probably wont wake up till 12 then. And I have to be in coll at 10:30!
Yuck… college on a Saturday. Good form of torture in my opinion… actually I’m only going to pick up my invitation to the seniors graduation. Which is tonight. And also to just do a double check with paro on the stuff we are supposed to know for Monday. Oh, yeah, I have to go for the graduation ceremony bcoz apparently I’m getting the award for Overall Performance this year. I think that’s so bogus. Our college is so small. And I don’t think u can make a judgment about who's the best student through the classes coz our courses are so different. Yeah, so mayb I got the most Ms and Ds and I didn’t get any Ps. But that has a lot to do with our course. And also I think that quite often I get really good grades coz in comparison to my class I’m brilliant. But how much does that actually mean!? After all my ‘competition’ is Parvati and Samir… she u all know (from my earlier rants.. hehe) and he… well, he just doesn’t show most of the time.
College is more of a ‘timepass’ for him. he’s this Nepali guy, from an important and well-to-do family. And he admits to being a career student… not in those words of course, he doesn’t know that much English.
Actually, what ticks me of about him is that he’s talented! If he worked he would b really good. Definitely better then I could ever be in my opinion. I have to think about a shot before I take it. He has the instinct, the ‘eye’ for the perfect shot. I would kill for that. And he has it. And wastes it. Unforgivable in my opinion.
My mom used to say that about me playing the piano. But you know, I may have talent, but it’s not spectacular. I can name at least 5 kids I know who are MUCH more talented then I ever was. And they love it. So let them play… I never had the ‘heart’ for it. U have to love art to be really good at it. But samir… he does have the heart…. He just doesn’t want to work at it. And u need to have that too to be great. In my opinion ‘genius’ is a combination of talent, love, hard work and guts. No guts no glory u know…
Wow… this is a really long post! I thought it would be this tiny short entry. Just enough to let me finish a few songs that I wanted to listen to and then off to bed for me. but the rant kinda took over I guess : ) he he… oh well. I actually suspect that hardly anyone is reading this… only A and Ra and mayb K once in the while… so no ones going to get bored stiff.
I love to write these though… writing is sooo much fun. And it’s always good to keep in practice... tee hee.
Ok Blvd. Of Broken Dreams is playing… once that’s done this comp goes of. for sure… so bu-bye

another pointless entry

sorry.

this is not going to be a nice upbeat, interesting post... I'm feeling pretty low. got an awful backache. It's 3:48 a.m. and I'm Tired! but I cant go to bed coz my exams start on Monday and I have to be studying for them... darn it. and I'm sooo BORED!!! do u know how bugging it can get to read up and do research and look through notes on editing and camera and lighting techniques? well, it is NOT fun!!! in fact it is tedious in the extreme! monotonous and dreary and deadly dull :( ... and I'm sick of it. this is not what I'm interested in. I know I have to know this stuff, bcoz if u don't then u cant express urself properly when u write a script... to give all the people who have to be doing the camera and lighting and editing an accurate idea of what exactly u want them to do. and also when I start out I really doubt I'm going to have anyone helping me out with all this stuff. so I HAVE to know about it. and I DO! I just don't know the text book definitions and stuff... which I need to for the exams. which sucks. I HATE exams! I never do well...
okie. lets not jinx it b4 I even start. but seriously... what do exams prove? NOTHING!! all they really show u is who can mug stuff up best.
actually ours aren't that bad. they do usually involve a lot of common sense... but this first paper is one of the technical ones... and let me tell u... those are nothing but a PAIN IN THE ASS!!!!!! aaaauuuurrrrgh!
crap.... I think my crazy bits are starting to show... the sane, level-headed exterior is cracking under the strain of my intense boredom. hehehehe... *big sigh*
ok :) feel better now... a good rant and a deep breath are sometimes all that's needed to put things back into perspective. and now I realise that it's no big deal. I'm not really all that tired anyway... and yeah, my back does hurt still... but then this is exactly the amount of pain I would be in if I had been playing silly computer games for the last 4 hours... and yeah, that would have been a much more fun way to end up in this state. but not everything is about fun . right? so it's all good... and anyway. If I study so much now, it just means that I don't have to do so much work over the weekend! which is brilliant! :D
more time to play! yay! (hehehe the power of positive thinking...)
ok. back to the grindstone now that I wrote that out of my system...

eeek!

it's 4:22
I'm going to bed
chatting with sam and fern... was also doin a lil research. but enough now.
gnite
more later

DAMN!

hee hee hee...
mayb I should use that pink... it sure seems to provoke a response!
4 comments! Wow! Thanks guys. Good to know someone is reading this darn thing. It’s more of a pain to keep up then I would’ve thought… although, considering I’ve kept a diary (sorta) for Years! It’s a bit strange that I didn’t guess it would b tough right at the start.

Hmmm… don’t really got anythin to say actually. Exams start on the 20th… think I mentioned that b4… hmmm… anyway. I’m a lil scared. We haven’t really started our study hols yet. Our first paper is on Editing and the Media Project. Which sucks, coz the editing paper is apparently really technical (eeeek!) and I’m not really sure what the Media Project paper is supposed to b about!!

Our Media Project was to create an A/V for AMCO – which is this really boring old battery manufacturer (is that grammatically correct? Or should it b manufacturing company? Is ‘manufacturer’ specific? Damn! Y am I bothering with this!? ANYWAY…) and we haven’t really finished it yet. The video script is done. We’ve finished the shooting. But we still have to figure out the VO.
For this we need some information. Which Brand-com, the company that handles the AMCO account, is supposed to give us! They also have to get us some stock footage. Both of which they have FAILED to do!!! And until they give us this stuff we cant finish. And until we finish… we cant start studying for our exams! U See y I’m a lil stressed out here?

Ok… time to stop complainin… although I have it on good authority that it’s nice to take a break from ur sucky life and see that other ppl have the same sort of horrid existence to contend with… he he thanks for that Y :D

Sooo… what else has been going on? Actually nothing much. Been sick… still have a soar throat. But at least I only cough occasionally! Yay! So. ‘Stay home – go to college’, pretty much covers my whole life for the last week. Haven’t downloaded any interesting music or seen any interesting movies… ok, may as well just admit it.
My life is DULL! Dull, dull, dull. And boring too! He he he… at least it has been for a lil while now. Oh well. Got to read a lot. That was really good. ;) I love reading. And it was nice to actually have time to do that.
As I said, with the weather and stuff the cable TV and internet keep cutting out… so being stuck at home pretty much meant reading and sleeping. Two thing I really haven’t had a lot of time to do in a long while… so it’s all good.

Okie… now I think I gotta go. Will try and fill another one of these out tmrw. But since I really doubt I’ll have anything much to say… he he he… also… cant place too much reliance on the net being there when I have the time to write.

Oh. My cuz is driving down from Chennie as we speak. Should b here in about an hour… but I think he’s makin more of a flying (or in this case drive through) visit. I have college tmrw morning tho. At about 11. BORING! Well, not really. It’s just that usually I go in, and then we do so much less then what we could in the time we take… u know? Anyway. Time to go. K wants the comp. And I’ve probably run out of things to say. ‘probably’ coz I bet I could just keep this up for ages… rambling on and on and on… till the end of time…hee hee hee…

bye now

:(

y does no one comment on my posts? i know they're not really intellectual or anything... but aren't they amusing?
:( woe is me!
heh heh... sorry. was that overdoing it a lil? good gilt trip going till then tho right?
but seriously. happy to get comments. anytime. just dont criticize me or i may have to hunt u down and kill u. kidding. or am I!!!? tweedle deedle tweedle deedle... ha ha... sorry sorry. i REALLY need sleep. gnite all.
should i post this? hmmm...
well... y not?
:)
P.S. what do u think of the colour? ghastly nah? It's so pink barbi would wear it! ha ha! and i can only IMAGINE how it clashes with the rest of the blog... mayb i'll write in this from now on.... hmmmm...

reading

I just finished this absolutely amazing book.
It’s this science fiction story about a cyborg. Well, that’s really simplifying things… but anyway. The book is Elizabeth Bear’s debut novel and it’s called ‘Hammered’. At first I wasn’t really sure if I was going to like it, but then it totally sucked me in. and before I knew it I couldn’t put it down. So there I was, at 4 am last night all psyched up, and with that awesome feeling u get after reading a fabulous book.
U know the one…
And still craving more! I really, really want to get my hands on the next one. I think it’s called ‘Scardown’ … yup. That’s it. But it’s only out on June 28th. and that’s the release date in the US!!!! Which means it’s not going to get here for ages!!!!!!!!!! Aurgh.
: ( that is a sad face moment in my book… (heh heh. No pun intended. Seriously. Sorry. That was really, really bad. Even if it was totally accidental. Which I swear it was) …
anyway. That’s all I really wanted to say for today.
Now I should probably go to bed. It’s only 12:40 but I’m still convalescing. SO. Plenty of rest required. Went out of the house for the first time in four days today… but since it was only to college (blech) that really doesn’t count. I want to eat bacon… sorry random thought… it’s just that I’ve been craving all this salty, fried stuff. U know. French fries… Bacon… Sev… I think it’s the taste extremes. Also want blackforrest cake… and chocolate mouse and some really sour stuff too… raw mango heading the top of that list! But preferably thothapurri Hmmm… guess I’m getting better and want stuff I can actually taste. : ) he he
Okie… time to either go to bed, or get a midnight snack
So gnite

Indulging in my self defeat

He he… that’s actually completely untrue… but I like that line. It’s a quote from Len – Steal my sunshine. Which is an annoying yet amusing and catchy song.

We haven’t had any internet for a while again. Which was a lil more bugging bcoz I’ve been stuck at home, sick, with nothing to do. Would’ve been good to have something to play around with. Got bored of reading after a while… u know how it is… and there wasn’t any tv either, for most of the day – cable guy didn’t have any power again I guess. what made it worse tho was that I cant even talk… well, actually my throat has improved over the course of the day, so I can talk in a whisper now… but it kinda added insult to injury.

I hate loosing my voice. It’s so damn frustrating. I’m a lil too opinionated to just be able to sit idly by while ppl have a conversation. Not that I’m exactly the noisy type under most circumstances – not compared to my family anyway : ) he he he… they r all a heck of a lot louder then me. And I pretty much have to be really insistent or shout to get my point across. So not being able to speak really gets on my nerves.

The only good thing about it all, is that I got a respite from college for two whole days!! What’s more, we don’t have class tmrw either, and of course Sunday is always a holiday… and even if I have been bored stuck here with nothing much to do, it’s better then being in college. Coll has been real hectic recently… exams in a few weeks and we still have a bit of stuff to finish b4 that. Not been getting much sleep really… what with all the work. Actually I guess it was pretty inevitable I would get sick. Do tend to crash and burn unless I get at least 30 –35 hrs of sleep in a week. And that isn’t really all that much considering that 8x7=56! Which is the amount of sleep ppl r supposed to get. And of course there is the weather to consider. Standard blr monsoon, hot as hell one sec and then rainy and freezing the very next. I got wet too… hmmm… card stacked up a bit against me huh?

He he he… well, I think it’s just a throat infection and I’ll be fine in a few. By tmrw latest actually!! Pays to b optimistic occasionally… bed time now… had nice Chinese soup. There is nothing like chicken broth to make u feel better. And wanton noodle soup is one of it’s best forms : ) gnite

Sniffles...

Well.... that about explains everything!!!

he he he... now, lets talk about something else. I have often noticed the less u think about an illness, the quicker u get well... that's not to say u shouldn't take appropriate care. just don't keep feeling sorry for urself is all... and pretty soon ur all well again :)

the last few days have been quite boring and amusing at the time... which is a weird oxymoron, now that i come to think about it.... hmmmm... but none the less, in this case both things were true.
yesterday we did nothing in class, but we did find out what our exam papers are probably going to be like. sounds like they're going to be pretty hard, all technical and stuff, but apparently we should be in good shape to answer them. at least, ma'am thinks we're prepared... but then I'm not really so sure if she knows what exactly we have learnt this year.
she really isn't all that clued in about what is involved in animation or most kinds of film making really. but she does know how to source us excellent faculty who do have a clue... so i guess it all evens out in the end :) he he he...
lets just hope they aren't to hard. altho even if they are pretty scary I highly doubt I'll fail... but then, that dratted Pradeep Sabastian is going to be correcting our film studies papers... eesh... now that is scary. for me anyways... hmmmm enough stressing. don't need to worry bout that for a few more days at least!! :D

we had the most amazing rain here yesterday evening! it rained so hard that traffic all over the city came to an absolute standstill! not many trees fell tho, probably due to the fact that most of the weak ones already came down last week. I hope those were as many as are going to fall. over 150 trees is no joke... i don't think the 'garden city' can afford to loose any more of it's tree cover...

anyway. there was this MASIVE puddle right in front of lavi's house. so when i went over there i had to wade through it. it was the funniest thing! there i was, with a big umbrella (luckily wearing shorts - coz pants would've gotten absolutely sopping wet), sloshing through calf deep water. and all the while lavi was standing on the balcony shouting down to me 'swim for it lavi girl!! swim for it!' ('lavi' here, being me, not her - we share a name) he he he... but mayb u had to be there to grasp the hilarity of the situation.

and today we - my class, that is - went to do our out door shoot in Lal Bagh. I think it came out crap. well, lets be a lil optimistic here and pretend I didn't say that... and while we're deluding ourselves lets also assume that we got some FANTASTIC footage, while will be invaluable to our respective portfolios... he he he...

okie... it is now time for me to go scrounge up some dinner. well, since my throat is pretty soar I don't actually know what I can eat... but I'm hungry. so lets go check the situation out huh? bu-bye for now

Parvati

this stupid girl, not so affectionately known as paro, is really, REALLY, getting on my NERVES!!!!!! aurgh!

doesn't she have anyone else to bug! y ME?!!! what the hell did I do to deserve this?!!!? she makes me want to SCREEM!!! and that is definitely NOT in a good way! god... I'm attempting to write my essay. minding my own business... just finishing of my work so I can get one, just ONE good nights sleep. but does she leave me be? that would be a BIG FAT NO!!! sheeeesh!

first she calls coz her mom is bugging her... so i gotta sort out that lil problem for her. then i get a short respite. during which I got ready for bed and then sat down to my essay again... and then the stupid chica gives me a follow up on how her talk with her mom went. she KNEW I was working! but does that stop her? OH NO... the world REVOLVES around the bitch... everyone has to be available at her convenience, to help her in any way she needs. I don't think I have EVER met anyone else as supremely selfish as her before... it's really unbelievable.

actually the first interruption wasn't that bad... but I said something along the lines of 'oh, good. glad to hear it all turned out well. now u can concentrate on the work we gotta submit tmrw.' and then she goes 'oh my, I was just about to out down my diary and start working. but another horrible misfortune has befallen me! the power has gone out!! is there anybody in the world as unlucky as me!!' - or words to that effect. seriously. she thinks SHE's unfortunate! I know another person as unlucky as her... ME!!!! I actually have to listen to all this crap day in and day out at all odd hours... and the worst of it is. I actually CANT do anything about it!! coz she actually DOESN'T have anyone else to turn to. really! and I guess I'm to soft hearted to do what apsi suggested - 'tell her to take a flying fuck on a rolling doughnut.' but it sure would've been fun to say. he he :D

i really think i should post the letter she gave me for my birthday. it's probably the best way to explain exactly how bugging she is... hmmm... ok. here goes

Paro's Bday Letter to Me - verbatim (spelling and punctuation included.)

hey L
Its no use saying Happy Birthday so late, but anyways however cliched and late it is, Happy Birthday. Its really funny actually, this is my third attempt to write a letter to you. I hope i don't have to throw away this letter. Well, I had to throw the last two letters because it seemed to be too boring and senti. (You know, what a sentimental fool i am.)
However, i really wanted to write a letter to you. Now we've known each other for more then two years or is it just going to be two years. (I'll figure it out later) But my point was how much much do we know each other? I guess, you know me much better then I know you. Thats good to know, but also its embaressing. I think as classmates, we compliment each other, do you think so? May be not all the time.
We are going to leave Wigan this year. This has been one of the worst incidents in my life. I still keep asking myself, why did this have to happen? and at this point of our lives. It was very tough and traumatising decision and its still bothering my parents; but you made it easy for me to move ahead, take a wise os say sane decision and stick to it.
Thanks, for that. But you know what there are also times when you get on my nerves, just as i get on yours and then i hate you so much; but i feel funny after a while when I'm back to my senses. I would say to myself "What was i thinking?".
HeHeHe Neways, I want to apologise to you for turning down all your invitations; I mean when you invited my mother and also the birthday party. Am so damn sorry, I wish i coukd explain you.
Its just that i feel completely out of place. Am sorry for that. hope u'll understand.
Well, now i don't know what else to write about except that you are a friend i care for and wud love to have have you as a friend for life. Wish you all the best in life.
God Bless You!!
with love
Parvati P.

so, tell me... is that your idea of a cheerful and nice birthday letter to give anyone. I don't think so. It really pissed me off, and was a lil hurtful too... you should've seen my family's reaction to it!! he he he...

I have never seen my mom that mad on my behalf before... actually, I didn't give her the letter to read. she saw it lying on the ground, and naturally, read it. but she was really ticked of... immediately started psycho analysing paro. I guess you can't shut counsellor instincts off... he he. but it did feel kinda good to realise I hadn't over reacted when I felt bad.

I didn't say anything to paro of course. what was i supposed to say after all? only a year left. that's what I keep telling myself. if I could stand her for two years, surely I can last this one year out - without committing homicide, that is. and after that - I NEVER have to see her again. with any luck, her parents will marry her of to some nice mallu guy with a job in Siberia... he he he... ok, that was a bit mean. I really don't want bad things to happen to her. I just want her to leave me alone once in a while.... it's really tiring you know... to be constantly solving someone else’s problems. I do have my own to worry about you know. y cant she see that?

ok

enough ranting for this girl. time to go finish that work. I'm still hoping to be in bed by 2 latest. which gives me about an hour to nail this essay. so gnite and bye bye all... he he he... like there are That many people reading my silly lil blog!

I'm so tired, i don't know what to do

Oooh my aching back! It’s only just past 9 O’clock, relatively early in the evening… and I have a shitload of work to finish. Damn. Wish I could just forget about it and go to bed. That’s one of the many reasons why I hate this weather - Cold and rainy- I always feel foul!

On to better and brighter things… wait. There aren’t any! He he he… ok, now I feel better. A lil ranting and sarcasm goes a long way.

So today – not as awefull as one would expect a Monday to be. Paro was sick, so I went to her pg to work. Got a short (half hour only!) nap.. and then went in to coll at about 3 to show ma’am our AMCO AV, VO, which we have basically finished. Just some tweaking required, which we will do in class tmrw.

We also gotta figure out what we’re going to be doing for our exams this year. Ma’am says that it’s all pretty simple except mayb this one really tough technical paper we’ll be getting on Premier. But I don’t think that’ll be too hard. He he… I hope. I think We’ll be prepared. What I’m stressing about a lil is what comes after that.

I am soo worried about my internship! What if I find out that I actually have no aptitude for this field (although I seriously doubt THAT will happen) or something equally horrific!! I know that it’s just irrational fear. Something akin to stage fright I guess… but still, there is a small possibility that it could all go terribly wrong. Isn’t there?

Sniff… I think I’m coming down with something. Darn it… better not get ill till after we’ve finished all our shooting and stuff though. It’ll b a real pain in the ass to be sick while shooting. And there’s no way in heck I could bunk! So better not get sick at all! Start of on hot tea and ferr phose RIGHT NOW!!!! He he he… madness.

I think I better push of now and actually do some of that work. Which will make it possible for me to be in bed before 3 am… always a good thing.

Arrivederci all…

sunday night... monday blues imminent

He he… hardly had this blog for a week and already I’m finding it hard to keep it up… actually that isn’t strictly my fault. Technical problems u see … we’ve been having some really awesome storms here recently, and this resulted in the me not having any net for a few days…

The monsoon is really getting of to an incredible start. We have even had HAIL!! Do u have any idea how long it’s been since we have had hail in blr!!? Years!! Literally. Not since I was about 10 I think, which is what? 11 years now?! It was sooo incredible. I love really good thunderstorms. Just as long as I’m not caught out in them. And so far I’ve had the good fortune to be at home through almost every one that has occurred.

Apsi left this morning. She was staying with us while she interned at Radio Indigo… which is only fair, since I’ll be staying at her parents house while I’m interning in hydrabad. Since last night was her last in blr she wanted to go out one last time (although that sounds a lil more melodramatic then it actually is, coz she’ll defiantly b back to visit and stuff).

Nav was playing at zero g and kush at insom, but since the zero g thing was a private party and apsi doesn’t really like insom we went to spinn instead. Not that was a bad thing… but it was just the four of us girls (apsi, her cuz deepthi, lavi and me – k wasn’t feeling well) on a Saturday night!! I haven’t been to spinn without a few guys along in for ever! And sat is always the worst day anyway… just tooo many ppl! And since I was the eldest I felt like I was the one in charge. Not pleasant… defiantly not a situation that seems to promise a lot of fun. And it wasn’t. well, not as much fun as we usually have anyway… especially since we didn’t have our own transport and were pretty much dependent on nav to come pick us up after we were done.

Well, of course spinn got raided. When doesn’t it on a sat night these days? So it was all shut up by 1:30. which sucked. Especially since we then had to catch a lift with juhi to insom (I HAVE to start driving!) and then since kush couldn’t get us in free that late – we kinda forgot to ask him to put us on the list earlier, we decided to just hang out in the lobby till nav was done. Which wasn’t till 2:30.

it was really sweet of him to offer to chauffer us around tho, so who am I to complain? I don’t drive, so I cant talk. U see why I gotta go get my licence? Just sheer laziness on my part anyway – and a healthy dose of fear too, of course, but I’m pretty sure I’ll get over that once I’ve gotten a lil practice.

Well, all that stuff is done for now. I don’t plan to go out for a few weeks at least! This last month I’ve been out clubbing enough to last me quite a while I think… all clubbed out. Anyway, with the rains starting and stuff I just think it’ll be a whole lot safer to stay at home like the good lil girl I am ;) hee hee hee…

Speaking of being a good girl, I guess I’d better go and finish the work I have to submit tmrw… and then I still gotta go take my bath and get ready for bed… sigh. It’s only a lil bit of work tho, so it’s ok.

Oh, paro’s mother just came down, she’s going to be moving here to stay with paro. Mayb now that stupid girl will stop being so clingy, and leave me alone for a bit. Bu-bye now…

Multitasking...

there are some definite disadvantages multitasking... remind me to never cut my nail while doing 24 other things... ouch! he he...

had a pretty good day all things considered… we didn’t actually have college. Which was a good thing coz I was sooo sleepy!! Which was weird, since I went to sleep really early last night, by about 1 I think… hmmm…. Mayb I’m getting old… not a good thought…

Anyway. I got to college at 10 and then found out that we weren’t going to have class, and since I knew that we didn’t have any power at home (they were hooking up the generator. All done now… No more power cuts!! Wheee!… he he he) so I went to paro’s pg instead. We spent the whole day doing nothing! Read a few comic books, ate and slept. Wish everyday could b that jobless… wow! Can u imagine how BORING that would get!! And in a very lil while too… oh well, be careful what u wish for I guess…

it constantly amazes me how paro can b perfectly good company one minute and then the whiniest most irritating bore the next... hmmm, better remember not to tell her about this blog... he he he... some people have really major issues and aught to go get them sorted out before they foist themselves on an unsuspecting public... have u ever noticed that people who say things like 'I know I bug u, and I'm sorry!' never actually do anything to try and stop bugging you? well, I have... it's weird...

I think I'm beginning to use the word 'weird' an awful lot recently... that is either becoz my life has just gotten totally crazy and strange, or I'm way to lazy to find a new word to describe what I'm thinking... ummm... how bout bizarre? odd? peculiar? perfectly appropriate and useful words in their own right...

hmmm… the internet keeps cutting out… glad I’m writing this out on word, but it’s still bugging coz I’m trying to some research work… aurgh!! Guess not everyone is inured to power cuts. Stupid internet guy, haven’t u heard of a generator!!?

U know what? I’m supposed to be working. Mayb I should go do that huh? Mayb……………. I think I’ll go get some coffee and a bowl of chocos first. Y would anyone want to spoil chocos with milk? They are wonderful snack just the way they are! And so high in sugar content too!!! The perfect thing to help a person stay awake late into the night. Of course, the way I’m going to feel tmrw – what with all the caffeine and sugar zipping around my system, could explain y more ppl don’t do it. But I’m a big girl, I can handle a lil excess energy. No problem

Well, hello

Hi
this is weird... I've never had my own blog b4. um... thanx R for setting it up :) can u believe he actually made it PINK the first time!!!? I am soo not a pink chick. what were u thinking? weird child... he he he...

I'm listening to this amazing track called Deepest Blue ( the club mix version) - ever heard it? and I ought to be doing research work, for this assignment on the history of animation (who comes up with these assignments!!).... procrastination, a students worst enemy.... hee hee

chicane - no ordinary morning!!! this is the most brilliant track!! at the moment I am totally obsessed with four tracks, the two mentioned b4 and Blvd of Broken Dreams (Greenday) and Is it a sin (another track by deepest blue... but this time I really love the original version).

hey, did anyone watch today's football match? Liverpool vs. Chelsea? Awesome!!! they played so well!! but I missed the last 10 mins coz the damn cable guy did something dumb and suddenly all I had was snow!!! aurgh!!!!!!!! did they win? should've... I'm hoping that they managed to get another goal at the last minute (Liverpool, that is) coz that would mean that they won 2-0 :D which would have really rubbed it in...he he :) go Liverpool!!!! yay

hmmm... okie... mayb I should actually go and do my work now.. gotta turn it in on thursday. not much time left... my comp screen is the weirdest colour ! got this strange bluish cast all of a sudden... y? R says it’s probably coz there’s a large magnetic field close by or one of the colour guns died… oh. weird. also giving me a slight headache...

time to go work so I can get to bed at a half-way normal time... 3 o'clock latest!! :) hee hee weird what becomes normal when ur in college...

Lets Get This Started!

Here you go L.

Your very own, fluffy little blog!

Love, R.